same-old same-old
Jan. 10th, 2021 05:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chhotiiThis week's news is that the democratic government of my country was not violently overthrown by extremists. Funny that it's news; after all, it's been the case every other week of my life that the democratic government of my country was not violently overthrown by extremists. But the news-worthy thing this week is that now it's news that it didn't happen.
I was shocked by the brief takeover of the seat of power by an insurrectionist mob, but not surprised. I'm even more shocked at how many people were surprised. Um... hasn't Trump all along told us exactly who he is? When people tell you who they are, believe them.
In other, um, news, I continue to feel lonely and isolated. Contact with other human beings over electronic means is better than nothing, but really really inferior to actual presence. It exhausts me to try to be social over Zoom and such. Thus, I'm lonely, but I'm ignoring the opportunities I have to be social.
Thus, I'm failing to get excited, in any sense of the word, about Arisia. If Arisia meant going to the hotel for 4 days, that would be so nice. But it's just more stuff at the computer. Last year I took on a high level of responsibility with Arisia and threw myself into it. This year I have a brain-power-type job. I can't stand the idea of helping with Arisia, or doing anything else, if it means touching a keyboard or looking at a screen. This would normally be a good year for me to volunteer at-con by putting together Art Show panels, or restocking corn chips in the Con Suite, or something like that. But volunteering for Arisia at the lowest possible level would probably mean monitoring a Discord channel or something like that. Can't deal. Nor am I showing up for my climate activist groups' things, so, Arisia should not feel uniquely scorned by my fatigue.
I was shocked by the brief takeover of the seat of power by an insurrectionist mob, but not surprised. I'm even more shocked at how many people were surprised. Um... hasn't Trump all along told us exactly who he is? When people tell you who they are, believe them.
In other, um, news, I continue to feel lonely and isolated. Contact with other human beings over electronic means is better than nothing, but really really inferior to actual presence. It exhausts me to try to be social over Zoom and such. Thus, I'm lonely, but I'm ignoring the opportunities I have to be social.
Thus, I'm failing to get excited, in any sense of the word, about Arisia. If Arisia meant going to the hotel for 4 days, that would be so nice. But it's just more stuff at the computer. Last year I took on a high level of responsibility with Arisia and threw myself into it. This year I have a brain-power-type job. I can't stand the idea of helping with Arisia, or doing anything else, if it means touching a keyboard or looking at a screen. This would normally be a good year for me to volunteer at-con by putting together Art Show panels, or restocking corn chips in the Con Suite, or something like that. But volunteering for Arisia at the lowest possible level would probably mean monitoring a Discord channel or something like that. Can't deal. Nor am I showing up for my climate activist groups' things, so, Arisia should not feel uniquely scorned by my fatigue.
