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not going to Relaxacon
May. 30th, 2019 06:14 amSigh. I've never been to Relaxacon. Ever since Vic was born, Vic has been so high-maintenance during Arisia that I cut way back on how much I volunteer at Arisia. This year Vic was way more self-sufficient at Arisia and I was able to put in a lot more volunteer hours. But, after long stretches of not being involved, I'm barely entry-level grunt. I picture Relaxacon as SMOF and senior staff and feel like I would feel like an imposer. If Janet were alive, I would go as her satellite and feel more comfortable socially in her orbit, I think; but no.
I would feel less out of place this year having done some pre-con Art Show work and having joined Corp, but I told myself "can't go this year because house". I assumed I would be super-busy at the house every weekend until the house sold. Turns out, this coming weekend, the realtor decided let's let Sarah move out in peace and not try to do an Open House this weekend; and it will be much easier to get the house into shape after Sarah leaves. So, I have this coming weekend off from House. But, having to add the house's lawn mowing and electric bill to my household budget and projected to run out of money completely in August, I've been sternly telling myself "no spending on non-essentials!" What do I spend money on that could be cut? Oh, yeah, vacations. So, last-minute deciding to jump into Relaxacon? Exactly the impulse I was trying to curb.
What makes me sad about this is that they are talking about changing venue, and thus this will probably be the last Relaxacon at the Cape. Possibly the last Relaxacon ever, because Arisia collectively can't agree on the essential requirements for a venue, and nothing affordable is perfect. I would like to hang out at the beach, with the economies of scale of going with a group. Without Relaxacon, it will be A Big Project to figure out how to make that happen.
I would feel less out of place this year having done some pre-con Art Show work and having joined Corp, but I told myself "can't go this year because house". I assumed I would be super-busy at the house every weekend until the house sold. Turns out, this coming weekend, the realtor decided let's let Sarah move out in peace and not try to do an Open House this weekend; and it will be much easier to get the house into shape after Sarah leaves. So, I have this coming weekend off from House. But, having to add the house's lawn mowing and electric bill to my household budget and projected to run out of money completely in August, I've been sternly telling myself "no spending on non-essentials!" What do I spend money on that could be cut? Oh, yeah, vacations. So, last-minute deciding to jump into Relaxacon? Exactly the impulse I was trying to curb.
What makes me sad about this is that they are talking about changing venue, and thus this will probably be the last Relaxacon at the Cape. Possibly the last Relaxacon ever, because Arisia collectively can't agree on the essential requirements for a venue, and nothing affordable is perfect. I would like to hang out at the beach, with the economies of scale of going with a group. Without Relaxacon, it will be A Big Project to figure out how to make that happen.
